Second Post of the evening (it was originally the second post a month ago)

I originally wrote this the day after our 20 week ultrasound (I am not 27 weeks). After discussing it with Scott we decided not to post anything about at that moment we needed to get more information and needed to let certain people know in person. So this is the beginning, the post that I started six weeks ago...


It is unusual that I post about once a month and here I am posting twice in one evening! I decided to post about our last appointment. This was a hard decision for me to make because of how it went and not really having a whole lot of information yet. I just really need to get this off my chest.

Our last appointment was when we had our ultrasound! We were very excited. It is so weird seeing your baby in you on a screen! The ultrasound was a lot of fun. After the ultrasound we had our monthly doctor visit. When we were going over the results she said that there was a note from the ultrasound doctor. The note said that there was "extra something or other" (I don't remember what it was called) on the back of our baby's neck. She said that this is a sign of Downs Syndrome. I really don't remember much after that, I mean you hear something like that and it's like no other information can be absorbed! We were told that we needed to go to Madison to have another ultrasound done, one that would be able to find more signs. This is a really hard thing for me to think about I even got a little emotional on my way home from work the next day which if you know me...well lets just that is not like me at all.

The Story Continues


We ended up having to go to a hospital in Milwaukee to get another ultrasound done to see if there were more signs or other issues that we needed to be worried about. I was so anxious to hear what the doctor was going to say and hoping that we would know what was going on right away and not have to wait. During the ultrasound the doctor was really quiet the only thing he said the entire time was "Do you know what your having?" and "see his little hand right there?". To be honest this made me more nervous, I had to constantly tell myself to breathe. When he was all done checking all that he needed to check he started explaining. Basically if you take your hand put it on the back of your and move it down to your back it should curve in, well my little Landon's neck doesn't do that. That is what my doctor saw on our ultrasound but this not really explained to us until this point. The doctor in Milwaukee continued to explain to us that he was not able to find any other signs of Downs Syndrome except for that one. He also said that he checked for the heart disease that is associated with the neck thing and was able to rule that out!!! Thank God!!! However we are not completely out of the woods with the Downs Syndrome, he said that our chances have dropped significantly, but that he has seen cases where kids have Downs Syndrome with that as their only sign.

With all of that being said we left feeling better about the whole situation. I have decided not to worry or dwell on the "what ifs" and just enjoy my pregnancy and my baby! It is in God's hands and whatever happens is going to happen I have no control over it. All I can do is do my research and try to be prepared for what happens no matter what.

My baby Landon!

He has my nose...isn't he cute!

Crafty

So I have become completely addicted to DIY project blogs! I wish I was that creative and crafty. I am already saving a collection of ideas to do with little Landon. There are so many things that I want to learn the biggest one is sewing! I don't know why but I just have this desire to learn how to sew. Although, I highly doubt that it will happen before Landon comes but it is a nice thought.

One of my first projects that I have decided to do is to make/design recipe cards. At this point I have all my recipes scribbled on 3x5 notecards, I want them on something cuter! I can't wait to see how they turn out. The blog that I got this idea from is http://paisleepress.blogspot.com/2010/11/diy-recipe-book.html. This is such a cool blog with tons of scrapbooking ideas and other really cute DIY projects!

I'll post my cards when I am done, and let me know if you know of any fun DIY projects, sites, or blogs!!

Finally!

I am so excited! We finally received Scott's transcripts. We waited over a month called and left messages so much that it was boarder line harassment. They NEVER returned our calls, and when we were able to actually talk to the lady that was supposed to send them she kept saying that she would do it that day but NEVER did. I have no idea how a school can be run like that! But anyway, we finally got them and can get the process started for Scott to go to school. We are hoping that he has had enough credits, and that his references were so good that it will be enough to get straight into Seminary.  We will keep praying!

What a GREAT weekend!!

Well the weekend started out not so great...it was kind of scary actually. Friday night on my way home from work I was sideswiped by a car full of high school kids. Me and baby were fine just shaken up a bit. My car however not so fine. We may have to get a new vehicle, so this is kind of a blessing because we were talking about getting a new van anyway but really had no way to afford it. So anyway Friday night was a long night with ER visit, Pharmacy visit, and not getting home until almost 1 am after working all day. Praise God no one was hurt!!

Sunday however was an extremely eventfully and fun! We had our Pink or Blue Party. It was great to see all our close friends and family! I decided to get creative and make a sign for everyone to sign!

Our cake revealed that we are having a BOY!! His name is Landon James! I am so excited to start sharing about all the new adventures that we will be having with Landon!

 My mom got a gift for her grandson or granddaughter. Me and my sister looked at both after we found out that I was having a boy...she thought the girl stuff was really cute and had to show me lol!! 

Landon's first set of clothes! Aren't they cute, Scott LOVED the monkeys!

Catching Up!

Once again it has been awhile since I've been able to post. There has been so much going on in my and my families life, I don't even know where to begin.

Back in July my grandpa got into a really bad car accident that landed him in the hospital with broken ribs, sternum, pelvis, hip, and a couple vertebra. He was in pretty rough shape and has been in the hospital since. Now he is having Kidney issues which makes him really loopy and out of it.

I am now about 14 weeks pregnant! We are both very excited to start this new adventure! I have been pretty sick but I have been told that it will pass...hopefully it will pass soon. It is completely surreal to me that I have a little person growing inside of me. The other day I think I felt the baby move it was so weird it, felt like, well I can't really explain it.

Well I think that is all for now it is getting to be past my bed time! LOL!

God is so good!

Wow, what a week!
Over the last couple of weeks Scott has been talking to our pastor about doing internship at our church so that he can learn and experience what is like to be a pastor himself. Well about a week ago when Scott received a call from our pastor asking him to take a week off work and go to IYC! IYC for those of you who don't know is an International Youth Conference, it is a huge conference and tons of fun! I went 3 times through out high school. He really wanted to go so we discussed it and determined that with the lack of hours he has been getting at the restaurant it wouldn't be the best idea for him to take off that much time on such sort notice. So he called our pastor back to tell him the decision that we had made, this really upset me (by really upset I mean I was in tears which doesn't happen often) because I knew he really wanted to go and I knew he would have loved it. While on the phone with our pastor he said that Monday they would meet and talk about the details of this internship opportunity and try to get it approved by the board. So its Monday, they meet and the details are sort of ironed out all that was left was the approval, so as Scott left for work that evening he was told to call our pastor to see what was decided. So right before Scott left work to come home he called our pastor was told to "go ahead and put in your two weeks!"

I am so excited for him! This is going to be so good for him to really experience how the church works and is run before he heads off to school! So not only is he able to quite a job that he no longer enjoyed, but he will be doing what God has called him to do and getting paid to do it (it won't be much but that is ok we will be saving money with one of us not having to commute to Madison)! When I heard all this all I could think about what was that song we sang in church as kids:

God is so good!
God is so good! 
God is so good, 
He's so good to me! 

We are still waiting for official approval on the details from the board and when that happens the internship will officially start! Scott gets to go to IYC and experience what I did so many years ago...I am so excited (I just wish I could go with him)!!

The journey begins!

So I must say that I have become more used to the idea of becoming a pastor's wife and even more excited!  I would probably go as far as to say that I am about to start driving Scott crazy. See I am a planner I love to research and try to gather as much information as possible.

So today Scott was talking to a former pastor of our church at church and they were talking about what Scott was possibly going to be doing for school and he was giving Scott some great advice about ministry. They talked about some different schools that Scott has been interested. When on the way home from the movie (we went to Toy Story 3 with my family) we were talking about some different ideas for him to go to school and who he would possibly talk to in order to make a good decision. Well I have decided to jump the gun and start doing some research on my own. I have looked up several schools already and checked to see if there was an Apple store near them.

It seems weird to me that my feelings have changed from fear to excitement in a very short time. I am so proud of Scott and all that he is doing to provide for me and our future family!

A lot has changed

Well once again it has been awhile since I have had anything to say, but so much has and is about to change in both my and Scott's lives. About a year a go Scott decided to make a career change, he felt that he wouldn't be able to make a living out of massage therapy at least not a financially stable one living in Janesville. He has been struggling with what he has wanted to do with his life, and I have been struggling with the uncertainty of it all. Well to make a long story short about 4 or 5 months ago he has finally decided what it is God is calling him to do with his life! He wants to go into ministry! I am so excited for him! I must admit I am scared as well, I don't know what this is going to mean for us, possibly moving, many years of schooling, and job searching. This is the first time I have really been able to talk about it, Scott hasn't been telling anyone about his decision with the exception of a couple of people. I love adventures, and this is definitely going to be just that...an adventure.


Jeremiah 29:11-13

¹¹ For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. ¹² Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. ¹³ You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.


There are so many things that could happen over the next couple of months and years. There is so much on my mind! I must say that I am very proud of Scott and what he is doing with life and everything that he has/is doing for me! I am still trying to get used to the idea that I am going to be a pastor's wife (weird I know) and I am hoping that as our adventure continues I will have the time to continue writing about it. 

Big day!

Well I realize that it has been a long time since I have posted something! Life has been so crazy recently, I have had projects going on for church, I have been trying to keep up on my house work, and just work in general. I just took a test for work to become iPhone and iPod certified and failed by not even a full point...you need an 80% to pass and I got a 79.46% which was just frustrating to be so close and not make it!

As I said before I am working on some really fun graphic stuff for church...I can't wait to post the final product! Next week we are doing a series called "The Road to Recovery". It is going to be awesome! This week our church has hosted the men's homeless shelter, which me and my husband helped out with. I am so glad that we had that experience, it made me realize that no matter how bad I feel things are for us (financially) it could be worse. God is so good to us and He provides everything that we need. I have had to learn the difference between need and want since I have been living on my own.

Anyway, on to what the "big day" is all about! Tomorrow is the iPad launch! I kind of have these mixed feelings about the whole event. This is my first Apple product launch that I have been apart of as an employee. The feelings that I having are nervous (I don't know why), excitement, and proud all at the same time. To be apart of something that is going to change our world of technology is such an amazing feeling. I am so excited to get my hands on one, I mean to see it and touch it will just be an experience that I will probably never forget. I know I am a geek and it may seem like I am going a bit overboard, but I don't think many people understand...I am a geek. Like I said this is going to change so much about the way we do things in life. I think I can honestly say I have never been so excited to have to be at work by 7am...but I don't think I will be able to do much sleeping tonight due to my excitement. I will admit that I was one of those people that thought "I don't see myself getting one, I don't feel that it is something that I would use...I need a computer" but the more that I read and see the more I am proving my own thoughts and feeling wrong. Now I feel like not only would there be so many things that I would use it for but it is just so awesome and I want one really bad...eventually! Anyway I have to get going off to bed...its going to be along day tomorrow. Thanks for listening/reading I just had to get these feelings out or I knew that I would never be able to go to sleep!

WOW!

So many times we have pretty significant changes that take place in our lives. This has definitely been the case in my life. Just recently I got a hired for a new position at work which I am so excited about. Second, was the conversation that I had with my husband about what he was wanting to work in the church as a career! I am so excited to see what God has in store for us but I have been scared at the same time. I was on facebook  and my friends status was a challenge

“Today, I will purpose to set aside all things, and to trust God alone, for alone He can do all things. I am his child, and for me , that is enough”

 

This is something that I really needed to do! I was so encouraged by this to just trust God and everything will be ok! As soon as I read this my mind went straight to my life verse Jeremiah 11-13
¹¹ “For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope. ¹² In those days when you pray, I will listen. ¹³ If you look for me wholeheartedly, you will find me. “
God is so good all the time! He keeps his promises to us no matter what! I am truly blessed to have the things that I have and to have the people that are in my life! I feel that Scott and I are living proof of what it says in Jeremiah as we have been searching what God has planned for our lives!

So Much on My Mind

February 17, 2010

I have so much on my mind I just have to get it all out.

First of all it is my nieces first surgery in a couple hours today….so I am up thinking about her and my sister and her husband. I couldn’t imagine being where they are now, I am so proud of them both, they are so strong  to be going through all this at such a young age! I know that it is something that has to be done and that it will do nothing but benefit all of them (mostly Taylor) in the long run but it is still scary to think of such a small baby going into surgery.  My thoughts and prayers are with them all today and in the weeks/years to come as she will have at least 4 more surgeries. I love you guys!!!
Second and on a completely different note. I have been thinking about my husband and our future family a lot today. Scott is an amazing man and I am very proud of him and how hard he works to take care of me! He has been struggling with what he should do (career wise) with the rest of his life. He has talked about doing so many different things. Apart of me feels bad because I have told him that “I wish he would make up his mind and stick with his decision”. He was a massage therapist for 7 years and it didn’t work out (it wasn’t a stable income) so since May he has really been struggling with figuring out what his passions are and what he wants out of life. The reason that I feel bad is because I know that this has been a struggle and adding pressure has not helped at all. I have always said and meant with my whole heart that I whatever he decided I would have his back and support him all the way!

The last thing that he talked about wanting to check out was the firefighting program. This has worried me because he has a bad back and I would hate to see him get hurt…but I told him my concerns and encouraged him to look into it if that was what he wanted! This was several months ago. He has such a big heart and wants to help people which is great!
He decided to make a list of the things that he was passionate about God being number one, family, and helping people (in a nutshell). From there he has been praying about what he should as a career! Remember I didn’t know about any of this. Today he told me that he had a conversation with our pastor while hanging out at the church today or should I say yesterday, and he told our pastor that he has been feeling that he needs to be involved in the church in some way but he didn’t know what that meant (for him, for us, and just in general). So I am not even really if he wants me to be sharing all this but I just had to get it out! I am not sure what this means and neither is he but I will have his back no matter what God wants. In some ways I am scared because I am such a planner…I like to know what is going on and be in control but at the same time I am excited about this amazing adventure that we are about to go on together!  I know that God has a plan and he is just trying to figure out what that plan is and I know that God will provide for us in every way! So we will see what happens!
I should probably get to bed I have to work all day tomorrow! Another great day doing what I love to do!

Getting it Together

It feels like our apartment is finally coming together! I am so excited that I have a place that we can call home and have it actually feel like is. We have a small place so I have had to get kind of creative when it comes to organizing and storing things. I am always looking for ways to become more organized because I am a very scattered and forgetful person.

This is our very small kitchen

As you can see we have a very small kitchen so not much cupboard space or counter space.

We use these shelves to hold our small appliances and other things that won’t fit in our cupboards. So like our toaster, our wok, our cereal and other things! I love this, I think it adds character to the kitchen and makes it easy to find exactly what I am looking for. I also didn’t have a good place to put my pot holders and oven mitts so I decided to hang them on the wall. I figured this way not only are they with in my reach but they add color to the very plain walls.
I am so excited that everything is coming together and I am feeling very motivated to continue putting our home together. Normally I just feel overwhelmed and don’t know where so I just put it off. I am determined to not let that happen this time so I have decided every Sunday (because I for sure have that day off) I am going to focus on one room or project and tackle it! So this Sunday is deep cleaning this apartment: the bathroom, dusting everything including the walls (its an extremely old house), vacuum, sweep and mop and the kitchen floors, laundry, and just tidying up as I go! It is going to be a busy day tomorrow.

I just don't know

Alright so here is the thing this is like the third or fourth time I have tried this blogging thing, and every time I get started I find myself reaching a point of not really knowing what to write about. I consider myself a private person and I am not sure how to put how I feel or what I am going through into words. As I read all my friends blogs, I have found that they all have a theme that they write about. So I have been doing a lot of thinking the last couple of days about what types of things I would even feel comfortable talking about with the world (potentially).
I have decided that whenever I don’t know what to say about my own life, I would talk about the projects that I am working on. I just started designing again…I am so excited!! There is nothing like it! I am always looking for inspiration, ideas, and feedback to help me improve my designing skills. So there is it I am always open to suggestions and ideas. Yay, I am so excited to share about the adventures of my life and my art.