February 17, 2010
I have so much on my mind I just have to get it all out.
First of all it is my nieces first surgery in a couple hours today….so I am up thinking about her and my sister and her husband. I couldn’t imagine being where they are now, I am so proud of them both, they are so strong to be going through all this at such a young age! I know that it is something that has to be done and that it will do nothing but benefit all of them (mostly Taylor) in the long run but it is still scary to think of such a small baby going into surgery. My thoughts and prayers are with them all today and in the weeks/years to come as she will have at least 4 more surgeries. I love you guys!!!
Second and on a completely different note. I have been thinking about my husband and our future family a lot today. Scott is an amazing man and I am very proud of him and how hard he works to take care of me! He has been struggling with what he should do (career wise) with the rest of his life. He has talked about doing so many different things. Apart of me feels bad because I have told him that “I wish he would make up his mind and stick with his decision”. He was a massage therapist for 7 years and it didn’t work out (it wasn’t a stable income) so since May he has really been struggling with figuring out what his passions are and what he wants out of life. The reason that I feel bad is because I know that this has been a struggle and adding pressure has not helped at all. I have always said and meant with my whole heart that I whatever he decided I would have his back and support him all the way!
The last thing that he talked about wanting to check out was the firefighting program. This has worried me because he has a bad back and I would hate to see him get hurt…but I told him my concerns and encouraged him to look into it if that was what he wanted! This was several months ago. He has such a big heart and wants to help people which is great!
He decided to make a list of the things that he was passionate about God being number one, family, and helping people (in a nutshell). From there he has been praying about what he should as a career! Remember I didn’t know about any of this. Today he told me that he had a conversation with our pastor while hanging out at the church today or should I say yesterday, and he told our pastor that he has been feeling that he needs to be involved in the church in some way but he didn’t know what that meant (for him, for us, and just in general). So I am not even really if he wants me to be sharing all this but I just had to get it out! I am not sure what this means and neither is he but I will have his back no matter what God wants. In some ways I am scared because I am such a planner…I like to know what is going on and be in control but at the same time I am excited about this amazing adventure that we are about to go on together! I know that God has a plan and he is just trying to figure out what that plan is and I know that God will provide for us in every way! So we will see what happens!
I should probably get to bed I have to work all day tomorrow! Another great day doing what I love to do!
I have so much on my mind I just have to get it all out.
First of all it is my nieces first surgery in a couple hours today….so I am up thinking about her and my sister and her husband. I couldn’t imagine being where they are now, I am so proud of them both, they are so strong to be going through all this at such a young age! I know that it is something that has to be done and that it will do nothing but benefit all of them (mostly Taylor) in the long run but it is still scary to think of such a small baby going into surgery. My thoughts and prayers are with them all today and in the weeks/years to come as she will have at least 4 more surgeries. I love you guys!!!
Second and on a completely different note. I have been thinking about my husband and our future family a lot today. Scott is an amazing man and I am very proud of him and how hard he works to take care of me! He has been struggling with what he should do (career wise) with the rest of his life. He has talked about doing so many different things. Apart of me feels bad because I have told him that “I wish he would make up his mind and stick with his decision”. He was a massage therapist for 7 years and it didn’t work out (it wasn’t a stable income) so since May he has really been struggling with figuring out what his passions are and what he wants out of life. The reason that I feel bad is because I know that this has been a struggle and adding pressure has not helped at all. I have always said and meant with my whole heart that I whatever he decided I would have his back and support him all the way!
The last thing that he talked about wanting to check out was the firefighting program. This has worried me because he has a bad back and I would hate to see him get hurt…but I told him my concerns and encouraged him to look into it if that was what he wanted! This was several months ago. He has such a big heart and wants to help people which is great!
He decided to make a list of the things that he was passionate about God being number one, family, and helping people (in a nutshell). From there he has been praying about what he should as a career! Remember I didn’t know about any of this. Today he told me that he had a conversation with our pastor while hanging out at the church today or should I say yesterday, and he told our pastor that he has been feeling that he needs to be involved in the church in some way but he didn’t know what that meant (for him, for us, and just in general). So I am not even really if he wants me to be sharing all this but I just had to get it out! I am not sure what this means and neither is he but I will have his back no matter what God wants. In some ways I am scared because I am such a planner…I like to know what is going on and be in control but at the same time I am excited about this amazing adventure that we are about to go on together! I know that God has a plan and he is just trying to figure out what that plan is and I know that God will provide for us in every way! So we will see what happens!
I should probably get to bed I have to work all day tomorrow! Another great day doing what I love to do!
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